Lots and lots of analysis
1. I am DESPERATELY seeking comfort and attention. I need to be held, cuddled and comforted like a child because I wasn't as a child. I wasn't comforted after I was hurt, there was nobody there to help. Nobody to hold me while I cried and to tell me it was okay. So now I get this in part from my therapist, but am a bit wary of it. I also have "warm and fuzzy" friends that always hug me and I feel comfortable enough to cry and get upset around.
2. I have always acted childish. I throw fits, I pout, I even eat childishly, only for taste. I try not to, but it's hard not to! I believe this comes from a young part of myself that never was allowed to throw fits like a child. I was always reprimanded very sharply and shamed when I acted out at all. Not so much by my parents as by my older siblings actually.
3. I also have a very grown up and mature part of me that is sometimes able to gain control and react properly to things. This part of me enables me to live very normally on the outside. I can hold a job, go to school etc with this part of my brain functioning. The problem is, I haven't yet figured out how to switch this part on by myself....
There is a whole lot more going through this head,but I wanted to at least get these out!