Sunshine and Volleyballs
I admit, a bit of spacing. I am still unable to react properly when I am looked at by guys driving past, and still panic walking past a group of guys, so much that I will go a mile out of my way to avoid it.
I wore a dress to church this morning, with my very favorite heels. A very pretty, pale pink chiffon with black lace detailing. Hits about 3 inches above my knee, and very modest up top as well. The kind of dress I like to wear. I wore it out to lunch with my friends as well, and a guy I passed turned to look at me, and when I passed him again to use the restroom, he smiled at me. I was instantly in freakout mode. He probably wasn't being creepy, as my friend pointed out. She said : "blue, you look very pretty and feminine in that dress. Not skanky or gross, but just pretty, decent and feminine. He was admiring that, not after you". She was probably right, but I still felt so gross and changed into my other clothes as soon as possible.
-sigh- I half wish I could wear pretty dresses without fearing others looking at me. But for now I will just have to pace myself. Get used to the idea that modest dresses are okay and fun to wear.
I have a lot to work on this week, that's for sure