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Well, it's official

Posted by SilverandBlue , 30 December 2013 · 156 views

I have Bipolar disorder type 2. I have always been extremely mood swingy, but have always been able to restrain my white rage, and don't let myself cry. I think this is mostly because I know subconciously, once I start, I can't stop and it ends up a disaster.
Friday night though, was miserable. I was actually hyper and happy and giddy before I went to bed...


STILL struggling with PT

Posted by SilverandBlue , 23 December 2013 · 248 views

I thought I would be fine in PT now, especially after I asked her to give me some warning if she was going to be taping me somewhere other than my ankle or back. She taped my leg a couple of weeks ago,from mid thigh to my waist, over my hip. I did NOT like that one bit. I was terrified and shivery the whole time. I don't remember anything she said while s...


This woman is extremely brave

Posted by SilverandBlue , 14 December 2013 · 250 views

I was told an inspiring story today by a friend, and I just need to share it.  She was molested around the same age as I, but never dealt with it. 25 years later, she is married, her husband knows all about it and is a huge support and comfort to her. It was he who convinced her to try therapy, and it has helped. Now here's the best part of this woma...


Dropped T

Posted by SilverandBlue , 12 December 2013 · 237 views

I left a message for my T yesterday, saying that I waan't going to reschedule, or schedule any more appointments. I'm just tired of going. I always say that, "I'm tired" but it's always true. She responded within the hour, which is unusual, thinking that it was the money issue (I switched insurance and they don't cover her) and offering an adjusted rate.T...


A week full of triggers and depression

Posted by SilverandBlue , 07 December 2013 · 280 views

I have not had this bad of a week in a while. It's a bit better now, but the rest of this week is just a jumbled hazy mass of lights, noise and colors. Thanksgiving was really bad, I pretty much hid in my room the entire time the family was over. I don't even know what brought this all on, but it feels as though there's an electric current running under m...

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