Struggling with many things almost sent me overboard. I decided to call my t. I knew he wouldn't get the message til late in the day, but perhaps, just hearing his voice was all I needed. I have never called him although he has told me to do so anytime. I guess I just don't want to sound like a freak on the phone to him. I left him a message and felt immensely stupid for doing so. What will he think when he hears it? Hell, I don't even remember what I said. He called me that evening but I was at work and couldn't answer. But I knew that was a sign he got the message and he cared. He left me a message, a comforting, caring message that helped. He clearly noted that "he understands" how I am feeling and that I only need him to understand. Nobody else needs to understand this. He is the one to help me thru this and he will talk more about this in our next session.
He brought me some calmness, he gave me hope and trust in him. He gave me enough to make it thru until our next session. I hope to be able to open up more to him. He is showing me such kindness and support that I should be able to trust him with this.