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I love you D.M

Posted by BattenbergPrincess , 24 September 2013 · 68 views

I've been in and out of a relationship with one of my best friends for over a year. We really have a very volatile and unpredictable relationship, because I'm so emotionally damaged. I wasn't the perfect girlfriend, but then the perfect girlfriend doesn't exist. We met in year 10 at school, the year before I was raped. I know he wants things to be how they were, but I'm not that girl I was when he met me. I'm more damaged and broken and lacking trust. As a result of post traumatic distress I had non epileptic seizures, lost all my friends and my school. He's stuck around through everything, but I just want him to be more patient and loving. He can't handle what happened to me, and I wonder if we'll ever be able to move on from it together. I know I'm young, but I really do love him.



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laurenbacall
Sep 24 2013 05:19 PM
I know he wants things to be how they were, but I'm not that girl I was when he met me. I'm more damaged and broken and lacking trust.

Hi, I can identify with where you are with this relationship. I think many of us on pandys do. I am not the same person I was in my current relationship and I had to put a halt on the relationship. I need to become who I was before the rape or something. I can't pretend any longer to be someone that I am not. I have aversion to touch and have lost all sensuality. Take gentle care. Recovery is slow and steady.
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BattenbergPrincess
Sep 25 2013 03:30 AM
Thank you laurenbacall for understanding, I guess we're all on a journey that can't be rushed. Take care of yourself xx

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