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Thoughts on my first date

Posted by wildnfree , 08 December 2013 · 194 views

Went out on a date last Friday evening. It was exciting, fun, and overwhelming at times. My parents were VERY overprotective and said a few things to the guy that were very cringeworthy. Since my parents know I was SA'd and R'd, they're over the edge. They told the guy I was royalty and a princess and to bring me back the same way I came-he was freaked ou...


Dating nerves

Posted by wildnfree , 04 December 2013 · 174 views

A really sweet guy I've gotten to know recently told me he has a crush on me and would like to take me out on a date. I wasn't expecting to be asked on a date for a while, so this is unexpected. I'm excited, but totally nervous. 
I haven't dated in a long time...well, since being with my abusive ex. I don't have any huge expectations of where...


Ticked off

Posted by wildnfree , 26 November 2013 · 129 views

I'm so ticked off, IDK what to do resides pray and figure out a plan with my parents I can't believe these people have the nerve to harass my parents


Ready for the next step?

Posted by wildnfree , 20 November 2013 · 116 views

IDK if I'm ready to go the my local rape crisis for counseling...I know my T at school can only do so much to help me with issues concerning CSA and SA. Plus the Ts at my school are booked and can't guarantee everyone an appointment until next semester :o I'm scared to go the crisis center. What if I break down or cry...I want to know my options in fili...


school stress

Posted by wildnfree , 18 November 2013 · 161 views

There are 2 weeks left in the semester. Im so stressed out :o Ive been in constant pain for the past 2 weeks but I pushed myself to get my work done. I have a group project and presentation due in 3 days and my groupmates have done nothing. I havent been to a session in 3 weeks b/c my T keeps stretching more time between appointments. Ugh


Doubting myself

Posted by wildnfree , 18 November 2013 · 110 views

Tonight I read through an old diary of when I was with my abusive ex. I thought it would have evidence against him...instead, I think I looked like the sad fool. In the head space I was in at that time, I sounded like a desperate, confused girl. The things my ex did were wrong, but I was so starved for attention it reads otherwise...looking back, it was o...


Reluctant to file report

Posted by wildnfree , 17 November 2013 · 123 views

Lately Ive been thinking of reporting what happened ro me, or at least going to the local crisis center to see what my options are. Honestly, Im reluctant to report it. What if the police dont believe me? What if theres not enough evidence to pursue X or he denies everything? ....


The V diaries: part 1

Posted by wildnfree , 15 November 2013 · 134 views

TMI warning this post will be about lady parts, abuse, and learning to like them, so if that makes anyone squeamish, I'm sorry! Today I went shopping for pads and menstrual pads. Well, window shopping since I didn't have much cash. I was really excited because I wanted an alternative to pads. They're not much hassle, but I'm tired of feeling like I wear a...


Pet peeves

Posted by wildnfree , 12 November 2013 · 99 views

I'm so tired of this dude I know always mentioning R in every conversation and assuming it only happens in third world or war torn countries. Does he not reaalize it can happen anywhere regardless of location, gender, race, nationality, political party, socio-economic status, etc?? Ugh, The boys needs to learn *sigh* SMH


A little progress

Posted by wildnfree , 11 November 2013 · 119 views

I may be able to move on campus or move to an apartment near campus next semester and I'm so happy. Home life has been on edge for a while and it's best for everyone to get some space. Really hoping this can happen.

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