I am sad, I feel so fragile of late it only takes something very small to push me over the edge
I am not sleeping well, it doesn't help things at all. Last night I slept for just a couple of hours before
I woke myself dreaming again. I hate all the bad dreams, feel afraid to sleep sometimes.
I wonder if it's still coming off the gabapentin but I stopped a few weeks back now so doubt it.
I really do not want to try any more drugs, I don't like the way they make me feel so unlike me
and yet I cannot say I feel like me right now anyway.
I purged again tonight
Tomorrow will be another new day, a chance to start afresh again
I have been doing well at starting my days the right way lately, I drink hot water with lemon then
herbal tea have a bowl of homemade soup for breakfast making sure it contains slow release
energy to last me through the morning. It's in the evenings my eating gets out of control and all the
sweets I stash in the cupboards come out.
I started reading a self help book, I am reading just a little at a time, it is making sense so far
just hoping it will help.
I wonder if I feel worse as I am about to get better
coming to understand and beginning to work through things in my mind
Maybe I should try some other drug see if it works for me
Maybe If I could get a few decent nights sleep I would feel better