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Posted by r_tyler , 12 September 2013 · 131 views

I'll give therapy one thing: at least when I was going, I had the illusion that I was moving in a forward direct. Now I know everything is at a stand still. I'm at work. Why? Because otherwise I'll get fired. And I care because? Because then I won't have money and that would be harder. Harder to do what? Live. Really, because there are plenty of homeless shelters around here and honestly, I think you'd enjoy that as much as you enjoy your job. Maybe more. It's almost lunchtime, I should eat. Why, you'll just have to do it again tomorrow and you can survive for weeks without eating.
I'm an aimless mass of carbon with no rhyme or reason, passing day after day, week after week, year after year. Why? Because I'm waiting in a socially acceptable way until it is socially acceptable to die. Hurry up already.

Sep 12 2013 01:37 PM
I'm sorry you feel this way.

I understand how repetitive and pointless life is, to me the question is why wake up? Sleep is the one place I can be whoever I want to be, the one place I can be happy.

But You are not an aimless mass of carbon, you're a person, and as hard as it sounds, you need to find something that makes you happy. I'm still searching, but I hope you can stay strong. :metoyou:

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