I actually spoke to the healthy boyfriend from my past yesterday. There were two that coincided. I was with an older man (there was no sex) when my perpetrator manipulated me into a relationship with him through telling me that I was part of an evil society and needed to join his "family". I told my healthy ex that I had written a book and that he was in it. I also told him that I needed to find closure by giving the book to him so he would know that I was being sexually abused and suffering from PTSD all that time. He was very supportive and said to me that he kind of had a feeling, but it was hard to approach me. I feel like I am really working through the last part of my healing process. The funny thing is that now that I am ready to move on, I'm finding out that relationships afterwards will most likely have to be dealt with. I hadn't considered them abusive because in relation to my first, nothing seemed bad, but they were in fact abusive.. What is this journey that we're on? It is certainly a life long lesson that I'm learning. I'm so thankful that I have a good husband now!