What are you doing to yourself?
Why do you do is to yourself?
You do this to fight them? To fight the ones who want to control you.
But you let them win because you did what they said you would do and you didn't control it or stop like the big girl your meant to be.
So now you can't do shit.
Your just a child, a child inside a thirty year old woman who can't get out, who can't be heard because you were never heard in the first place.