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omygod i found him.and reporting. *mentions fb but no other details*

Posted by lilyvanilla , 29 March 2016 · 69 views

so i was just browsing around online and i found him. on fb and on another site. i have 2 different locations for him. my..........the first guy who, hurt me.
i know i never reported it but i was hoping someone else had..........so i searched, for that. and to no avail. i know the reality of it is that most don't but still somehow...........i guess...


i feel like i can't trust him. evan that is. from: sept. 6, 2015.

Posted by lilyvanilla , 26 March 2016 · 60 views

'‘honestly. and i almost kindof hate to say it. the reason i don’t trust you completely is cause you are mentally unstable. and that’s not your fault. but you know i’m also not that understanding a person. i’m too afraid [and even as friends] to leave you bc i’m too afraid of what’ll happen if i do. if i call it q...


evan news. from: sept. 5, 2015.

Posted by lilyvanilla , 24 March 2016 · 56 views

'yeah so he called. and he’s spiking out again only this time he sounds sad. and that makes me sad. and i told him i wish there was something i could do and he’s like i wish there was something anyone could do. instead of being like ‘awww thanks but there isn’t much anyone can do’. actually i probably would’ve done the...


so, evan news. [evan = 'ca guy']. from: sept. 5, 2015.

Posted by lilyvanilla , 24 March 2016 · 47 views

'he’s ok. well he’s better than he was last night. apparently what happened was he broke his phone and couldn’t get a new one untill today. yeah he called me almost an hr. ago [6:10 atm] and told me this. god that was. terrifying. he apologised for that. 
ok so now he’s about to be homeless again not entirely sure why. he d...


and now i'm worried. well fuk. from: sept. 4, 2015.

Posted by lilyvanilla , 24 March 2016 · 66 views

'so the last thing evan said before hanging up was ‘i’m done’. and when he’s said that in the past he’s meant w/ everything. 
so i’ve called him. i’ve texted him and told him to please call or text. i’ve told him that although i can’t make him i also know they’re close and to tell his mom...


so evan i. from: sept. 4, 2015. [evan being 'ca guy']

Posted by lilyvanilla , 24 March 2016 · 37 views

'we’re still better but. he spiked out today and i dont’ completely get why. he.........it was bigger than usual. he started out by talking about. no well i called him after he’d called me and hung up. and then so when i called him he said ‘you must know that i’m on camera’ and then hung up. he has this thing about peop...


evan & i.again. [evan = 'ca guy']. from: sept. 4, 2015

Posted by lilyvanilla , 24 March 2016 · 37 views

'we’re better. um. after sending him angry texts last night [wed.]. well we talked about some things. and um. i asked him if i deserve to be defended. and he said i do. which is one of the things i wanted. i also asked him. if i’m making too much of the amber situation and he said ‘yes and no
. but i only wanted him to say no. there a...


it's been 10 yrs. kar - her. from: sept. 3, 2015. elusions to SU.

Posted by lilyvanilla , 24 March 2016 · 31 views

'or it will be tom. since a friend of mine um left. us. um and though iit’s still sad and always will be i’m at a better place w/ this . i talked to my dr. about it and she helped. although now that i’m at that place i feel weird. and like empty. and i don’t like that.
anyway. so here’s what i’m getting at: if you ev...


i need to. from: sept. 3, 2015

Posted by lilyvanilla , 24 March 2016 · 31 views

'get out of my situato. except i can’t bc it’s not in my  control.to . i don’t want to put w/ amber anymore and i don’t want to give her a chance or any more time to hurt me. more than she already has. and if it were in my control i wouldn’t. probably. maybe. which is what the meeting’s about. well one thing the...


evan & i. [evan = 'ca guy']. contains swearing. from: sept. 3, 2015

Posted by lilyvanilla , 23 March 2016 · 68 views

'yes more on this. um. i’m at odds w/ him bc he’s not giving me exactly what i want. which is to. 1: agree w. me 2: tell me fuking verbatim that i don’t deserve to be treated this way. i’m referring to the amber situation. and that i’m not making too much of it. unless he things i am in which case. don’t say anything....

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