The Wonderland Years
time to say goodbye. on letting go. about a friend. really didn't/don't want to do this. from: Sept. 25.
So a few minutes ago I phoned a good friend and left a voicemail telling him I think it's better if we don't call each other. I explained why, stating that I don't think talking to him is productive or helpful and that I needed to do this for me, for my recovery. from various things.
He'll understand. it'll be hard and weird fo...
yes there *is* hope in the world. kitties and babies [have you heard the good news?] yay! from Sept. 27
so here's what's new in the life of 'the super awesome miss lovely'/well *I*. had an interesting day.
so wow my dad sucks. not invited to wedding. and it's his fault I was r*ped [er, indirectly]. *Could T*
[and no I'm not getting married].
So usually we - my parents, sister and I - all have dinner together. but tonight my dad wasn't there. which was actually really nice. So we started talking about him. I told them both [so much for not ever telling my sister anything personal ever again. but that's another ballpark] t...
My friend was lucky to have a friend like me regardless of the amount of time we had. or, didn't have. As anyone would be/was/is.
I mean I'm sweet, charming, lovely, compassionate. and so on.
The best thing I could've done for her *was* be her friend. not that that's. always a great comfort or much of one.
Again I just have so much compassion for her. my friend. Like wow. she was a beautiful girl. as in, wow you deserve so much better than this bc of how beautiful you are.
And she was a nice person. not the warmest or sweetest or loveliest but nice. when, again, so many weren't....
She was so pretty. so pretty. not that that, equates happiness always. no of course not.
This brings up a lot of issues for me.
If I could say something to her it'd be 'i'm sorry' and esp. that she apparently hurt that much.
I didn't even.......I mean it's...
still here.17 December 2015
i'm just trying to make sense of it. the rape. on rape. from:04 September 2015
i was there for. from: sept. 104 September 2015
what if i had? from: sept. 104 September 2015
there was this. from: sept. 104 September 2015
i've been lonely latelylilyvanilla - Jul 20 2015 04:56 AM
thank you but i'm not stupid. *vent*Starlight - Jul 19 2015 09:58 PM
wow. and it just got real./nice people scare meStarlight - Jul 19 2015 09:54 PM
i've been lonely latelyStarlight - Jul 19 2015 09:42 PM
i'm not your ghost anymore. except he is! *might TW* *mentions d*ath*lilyvanilla - Jul 12 2015 05:41 PM