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The Wonderland Years


I've never been good enough for her. my sister.

Posted by lilyvanilla , 29 June 2013 · 101 views

So last night during our argument I told my sister 'I have never been good enough for you' and told her why. So that was.interesting.

The why being that I have to point out what I'm doing right otherwise she won't. And that makes me feel like those things aren't good enough which means I'm not good enough. which I told her.



triggered/scared into silence/shouldn't have to live like this/seen and not heard

Posted by lilyvanilla , 29 June 2013 · 25 views

So now I'm triggered. Again. By my sister's yelling which led to me being scared. yeah believe it or not yelling triggers me. big surprise there. It's been awhile since I was actually. like. yelled at like this when someone was literally in my face yelling.

See my sister apparently doesn't like the fact that after my laundry's done I...


anger/throwing things/passion/depth/fear *TW*

Posted by lilyvanilla , 29 June 2013 · 30 views

So I'm a really passionate person. And when I feel stuff I just.feel it so.incredibly deeply. When I'm happy I'm the happiest person in the world. When I'm sad same thing. [let's hope no one makes me angry. which has recently happened]. um.

So my sister made me so upset and angry last ight that I wanted to throw her glass of water at...


arguments/resentful/my sister. *Relationships* *Could T*

Posted by lilyvanilla , 28 June 2013 · 35 views

So as said my mom, my sister and I were all having dinner here ['here' being my mom's] [for the 2nd time] and at the end my sister and I had an argument. I don't remember how it started but apparently my sister doesn't like that I can do whatever I want. And according to my mom my sister resents me for that. Yeah well I resent her for...


where the hell do i start/packing arguments not good enough *T*

Posted by lilyvanilla , 28 June 2013 · 26 views

As put. :trigger:

Um...........wow. So much has happened lately.

So yesterday was my 1st meeting thingy w/ my new mentor Jessica. she's nice and really cool. I don't always agree w/ the things she says. It went well. she's pretty big on honesty.

So earlier that day while my mom and I were packing up my place. And I'd told her - I thin...



Posted by lilyvanilla , 26 June 2013 · 25 views

"You deserve to be smashed physically cause you were smasehd emotionally" - Pat, aka 'Sage'. ...........I love you. and miss you. so muuch.

"You're a million times braver than all the other girls I've gone.........", "Some people have real problems" - me "and you're one of those people", "I'm s...


About Me *E*

Posted by lilyvanilla , 26 June 2013 · 19 views

So it occurred to me just now that I've not posted an entry like this. not that I've been blogging here all that long.

*everyone here knows me as lily but i'm actually anne. either's fine. i'm actually thinking of changing my sn here to 'soulfullyinclined'. I've had the current one for yrs.
*which i've always been. sou...


So here's what's happened/packing, moving, Pam, egg shell, Julie Andrews lady, cabins. *E*

Posted by lilyvanilla , 26 June 2013 · 21 views

So this is for everyone uninformed which is pretty much. everyone.

So back in May I moved to my mom's [well really my parents'. a former best friend and former bc he left us back in March of mine lived w/ his mom uncle and sister which is where I got referring to being at my parents' as being at my mom's. from. um but anyway] after living...


i don't think i'll ever get married. *relationships*. *short entry*

Posted by lilyvanilla , 26 June 2013 · 20 views

Clearly, I blog a lot. and I like doing it.

So, as put. I don't think I'll ever get married. which apparently according to Pam the lady I stayed w/ over the past weekend [more on that later] isn't that outlandish. I'm not like. for marriage and I'm not exactly against it either. I realize it's not for everyone.

Um. I tell people...


stardust, hunger games, rock of ages, midnight in paris, i don't know how she does it. *Movies*

Posted by lilyvanilla , 26 June 2013 · 53 views

in other news.

While I was at Pam's, the lady who I was staying w/ over the weekend, her husband and I watched Stardust. I liked it. :D

Via the library I recently watched 'the hunger games', 'rock of ages', 'midnight in paris' and 'i don't know how she does it'.

'rock of ages' was good, cute, sad. :( :...

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