Finally had sex last night
It's making me wonder if I made the right choice in sleeping with him.
Also, he is good friends with a guy who treated me in a degrading and disrespectful way a few years back. He got impatient and angry on our first date when I didn't want to fool around. He put his hands down my pants anyway to get me off, then when i didn't want to reciprocate he got angry and yelled "i'm not an average guy."
I started crying and then he held me for a minute, but then just ended up making me jerk him off...while i was crying. If I had had more self-esteem at the time I would have told him to fuck off, but I felt so bad about myself that I just went with it and did what he wanted.
Now when I meet up with this new guy, a couple of times I have seen this other guy from my past. It makes it awkward to say the least.