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Finally had sex last night

Posted by radarlove , 23 June 2013 · 165 views

It was with a guy i've been friends with for about two months. He's very non-aggressive and respectful of my space. I'm so used to sleazy, eager-for-sex guys. So this made it a lot easier to trust him and relax and feel safe and ready. The only problem is the sex wasn't very satisfying. :(/> I guess I can give it another try, but I don't have high hopes at this point.

It's making me wonder if I made the right choice in sleeping with him.

Also, he is good friends with a guy who treated me in a degrading and disrespectful way a few years back. He got impatient and angry on our first date when I didn't want to fool around. He put his hands down my pants anyway to get me off, then when i didn't want to reciprocate he got angry and yelled "i'm not an average guy."

I started crying and then he held me for a minute, but then just ended up making me jerk him off...while i was crying. If I had had more self-esteem at the time I would have told him to fuck off, but I felt so bad about myself that I just went with it and did what he wanted.

Now when I meet up with this new guy, a couple of times I have seen this other guy from my past. It makes it awkward to say the least.

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