new therapist didn't work out
I think the point where I really shut down when I was talking to the new therapist was when she asked me how I was sleeping. I told her that I slept fine, but I did take over the counter sleeping pills. She asked what I was taking and I drew a blank--my brain is so confused by the depression that I just couldn't remember. When I saw my psychiatrist I knew he would ask me so I made a point of reading the label so I could tell him--and he said what I was taking was fine. But I hadn't looked it up before seeing the therapist so I couldn't remember.
She said: "You really need to know what you're taking." It sounded critical and I just shut down and didn't talk much for the rest of the session. Even before that point I was uncomfortable. As soon as I walked into her office I felt uneasy because her chair was so far away from the sofa where I would be sitting. When we started talking I still felt uncomfortable--with my sister's therapist it was easy for me to talk. That therapist just was so caring and empathetic that I felt like talking to her.
At this point I've seen enough therapists that I'm not going to waste my time and money on someone I don't click with. But it's frustrating--it's difficult finding a therapist that's a good match.