I would like to sleep. I can't remember when I last slept properly. When I do sleep I have nightmares. I need to sleep but I'm also becoming kind of afraid of it.
I had a dream last night that I was in a video game I'm playing at the moment, I often have dreams that I'm in a video game, playing as myself. In this one there was a man I had to kill to get by him, but all I had was a glass bottle. I threw the bottle at him, but it barely hurt him. He picked it up and threw it back at my face, it exploded and sliced apart my face. Then I was back at the start of the scenario. I tried again, this time the glass shattered on the ground and he threw a shard of glass into my face. This happened about seven times, with me failing and starting again. Eventually I decided to use the bottle to bludgeon him. This worked, he died and I walked away. I then noticed I had sliced my hand. At first it seemed really small but it split open and blood started pouring out of my hand and I woke up.
My dreams keep getting more and more vivid. The pain and fear are so real. It seems like I feel more when I'm dreaming than when I'm awake. Strange.