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Dream

Posted by BEAANS , 24 July 2013 · 117 views

Wanted to post this oldy but goody so I don't loose it.

So it started out that I was at some ladies house, under a big windy tree, there were no leaves on the tree and was really old and striped, like it was washed out from the ocean. So I was under this tree with her, and she was piercing one of my ears, but there were all rotting sandfly bites, all...


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SLEEEEEEEP

Posted by BEAANS , 24 July 2013 · 127 views

Dear void,
I would like to sleep. I can't remember when I last slept properly. When I do sleep I have nightmares. I need to sleep but I'm also becoming kind of afraid of it.
I had a dream last night that I was in a video game I'm playing at the moment, I often have dreams that I'm in a video game, playing as myself. In this one there was...


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Sleep

Posted by BEAANS , 21 July 2013 · 89 views

It's my first day of university and I slept for two hours and forty-one minutes last night. While I was first getting to sleep my partner accidentally hit me in the mouth with his elbow. I now know that I am triggered by the taste of blood. Every time I'd start to loose consciousness the taste would trigger me, I had about five vivid flashbacks la...


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In dreams

Posted by BEAANS , 18 July 2013 · 99 views

I was in a house with my boyfriend, but it was sort of half a house, and half the campsite where I was raped. We were there to confront whoever did it. It turned out my Boyfriend knew all of them. Because I couldn't identify their faces I made them show me their dicks, whoever had blood on there's must have done it (even though it's been years...


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Today

Posted by BEAANS , 15 July 2013 · 84 views

Dear Void,
I'm sick of being bored as hell, so today I'm going out.
I'm going to go out to the city, maybe have a look through the bookshop. Maybe I'll grab a beer.
I'm going to a strangers house to buy a bike of them, quite an intimidating idea.
I guess everything starts somewhere and maybe this will be a helpful exercise through whi...


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First times

Posted by BEAANS , 14 July 2013 · 80 views

Dear void,
I had my first day of orientation week at university today. It feels great finally getting on with my life after it's been side-tracked so badly.
It wasn't a good day for me though. Every time I start something new I enter into it with a decidedly ambitious and optimistic perspective of my capabilities. I look at everything as an oppor...





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