And so she freaks out...
But seriously, I am supposed to hand some complete stranger a piece of paper full of things that I don't tell anyone and actively try to hide from the world? Yeah, I'm not picturing that happening at all. What if I am just lying or exaggerating or just trying to get attention? What if I am seeing things wrong or just being stupid.
I think I would rather just pretend that nothing is wrong. Maybe it's not really bad and I am being stupid.
I think I kind of *need* to go, I mean, I know that my life is not working, has never been working and will probably never work unless I do something. I deserve better, right?
So why do I with every fiber of my being want to cancel that appointment and my T sessions and say fuck it all. So much I want to do that!!!