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It's not just about me...

Posted by PandaLily , 21 June 2013 · 75 views

I get caught up in my head so much, all the time really. Worried about what's wrong with me, what happened to me, the things that I have done wrong in life. I forget sometimes, I lose sight, of the people around me. People who depend on me and some who love me and they have lives and worries and burdens and joys that they need to share with me. What am I do when I feel so broken that I can't help to carry the weight? That when he comes to me, with tears in his eyes and a heavy heart I feel put off. I don't want to see his weakness, I don't want to think it's possible that he can break.

I feel so selfish. So stupid. So hopeless and helpless knowing that nothing I do will ever be right. Will ever be enough. Being with me, being close to me, is toxic.

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