I get tired of always being alone, constantly searching or trying but at some point I just do not want to try anymore. Maybe I am better off putting up barriers around my heart and my life. Nobody wants to hear me speak or my voice. It is funny how when you begin to speak people start to walk away. I spent most of my life not speaking because I was afraid.
My husband calls to apologize for stuff he has said all weekend long. Basically I am like whatever. Right now he is going through his emotional rollercoaster, instead he is nit picking at me and starting really stupid arguments over nothing.