The Day Before
I dream I would hit my head and forget who I am. I could have a big do over in life. I did not ask for this life but it was the one for whatever reason I was given. My thoughts are scrambled and all over the place today. It actually started yesterday. Feeling lonely and by myself. I miss two of my good friends, they were always there. Just to take off on the spur of the moment or talk to late night about things. Sadly I do not have that anymore, they both died along time ago. My husband is great but he always talk about his job and what is going on with him. I do not feel comfortable with the ladies I call friends to do that with. They are not those kind of people. One is so focused on her marriage it is crazy and I get tired of initiating everything. The other one is in Indiana and she is has her own set of problems.
I wonder if I disappeared if anyone would actally miss me or care? Answer is no and it actually would be easier without me here.