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My Hell Trying to Live

Posted by tamjohn70 , 30 April 2013 · 109 views

I feel like I can't breathe today, when I started blogging about my father yesterday I have not smiled since. All I have been doing is crying,I feel so alone right now I wish there was someone I could reach out to but I can't. I just don't know what to do, tired of having these days. One day I am up and I feel like I have the world at my hands...


Father's Approval

Posted by tamjohn70 , 29 April 2013 · 77 views

This past week was an interesting twist of emotions and over thinking. My father was put in the hospital for a couple days with pheumonia. My husband and I go visit him and the next day I completely forget. Then my feable attempt to reach out to someone because I felt guilt was a complete fail. Which I totally blame myself. It is funny when you tell someo...


Order to thoughts

Posted by tamjohn70 , 24 April 2013 · 93 views

I went to therapy today and we discussed me letting someone else read my stories, trust issues and feeling uncomfortable. She was able to clear up some things, one that me sharing to someone is good and that I made a good choice. I am uncomfortable because I do not allow people outside my husband to get that close. That this is new territory for me and I...


scattered thoughts

Posted by tamjohn70 , 24 April 2013 · 75 views

Just to be honest before you read my blog, I need to be blunt and honest. I live my daiy life very censored for other people. This leaves me feeling empty, hurt, tired and confused at the end of the day. Please take care of yourself when reading or if you can relate.

I recently started writing about my abuse by my uncle, this has opened alot of issues an...

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