Forever in the Past
How dose one talk about that kinda thing. I hate myself for being so easy, for giving myself to who ever wanted it. Thinking that I need it. putting myself in bad places for drugs. Sleeping with who ever would give me what I wanted. Drugs controlled me, owned me consumed me.
Im older now and I have a family a husband and a little girl that calls me mommy. What do I do with my past. I was never the same after the rape. I was a different person. I wish I could be the person i was ment to be, not the slut, not the whore. I love my life now but trying to fight over the past is killing me slowly.