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I never have to see them (at school) again!

Posted by lotus~flower , 24 June 2013 · 82 views

The two boys who raped me graduated (ugh)...but now I never have to see them at school again!
I spent my entire junior year being scared every time I had to walk in the hallway or turn a corner. However, I'm so proud of myself for pushing through the stress and anxiety and continuing to attend my school.
I'm so glad that I won't ever have to see the boys during my senior year -when I'd rather be focusing on getting into college and starting my future!

I'm still having trouble releasing the stress I've felt all year though. I'm still nervous about seeing them somewhere because I know they haven't left for college yet...so they're still in the area and there's still a change that I'd run into them..which I don't know if I could handle right now. I'm stuck in the middle of feeling liberated but still being nervous and anxious around people (not just about seeing the boys).

I hate to think that they've really had this far reaching of an effect on me... *sigh*



My daughter had to face several things during her high school years, and I know that it also impacted her in future settings due to us living in a small town. I'm so proud of her and you for facing such challenges with such courage. The one thing I tell her is that it impacts us on many levels from choices, to actions and beliefs for the rest our life, so every once in a while we just need to not push, but to find a way to release the anxiety and learn to relax. I hope you find a safe place to relax in the future. Congrats on making to your senior year.
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lotus~flower
Jun 24 2013 02:05 PM
Thank you so much, Orchid. :hug:
I think now would be a good time for me to come up with some ideas for releasing and relaxing.
Your words mean a lot, thank you again!

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