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WHORE

28 February 2007
Posted by Claire22  
I HATE YOU, YOU FUCKING BITCH. YOU ARE A WHORE A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT ON SOMEONES SHOE. YOU DO NOT DESERVE LIFE AND YOU DO NOT DESERVE PEOPLE TRYING TO HELP YOU. I HATE YOU SO MUCH YOU ARE SO NEEDY AND PATHETIC. WHY DO U HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS WHY DO U HAVE TO BE SO STUPID. WHY CANT U BE FUCKING NORMAL LIKE EVERYONE ELSE WHY DO U HAVE TO HAVE...
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Posted by Claire22  
Why cant i stand someone touching me. I could be my shoulder or just my hand but it makes me uncomfortable. My ex Peter saw me on friday night and i said hello to him. We are still friends and he is great but later on that night he tickled me. I screamed in the middle of the pub and went absolutely mad at him. I was so angry because i felt so out...
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End of treatment (refusal)

22 February 2007
Posted by Claire22  
I am coming off everything today. My mind is made up. I am sick of feeling like this, I am sick of having to explain my story to the real world. I just want to hide where they cant find me and dissapear. I am not taking the anti depressants today I dont want them i cant stand them so i am going cold turkey. I do not want to be controlled by drugs....
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Raw

14 February 2007
Posted by Claire22  
I cant cope with this today. I am not good at telling people details and opening up i am a closed book. I cant do this i cant go to my attendance review and tell her how i really feel. I am scared of her thinking i am worse. I am scared of what she might say, how she might act. I am so scared of her knowing things. Why cant i just have a written...
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went to docs

09 February 2007
Posted by Claire22  
I phoned up the doctors on wednesday morning. The doctor i had seen before had left which i thought was really bad because she didnt tell me and i trusted her with everything and she just upped nad left so i had to have a new one. I had to tell her everything again. I was half an hour waiting in the waiting room and i really was freaking out....
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How to act Normal

09 February 2007
Posted by Claire22  
Yesterday was so bad wish i had never got up. I managed to get triggered in the chatroom and was freaking out ten mins before my friend was coming round. I dont no why it affected me so much think it was because it took me by suprise and completely off guard. How could i have been so stupid to let it affect me again.

My friend came round and was...
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Turning a corner

09 February 2007
Posted by Claire22  
I went to the doctors on monday and told her everything. Cant believe i did that n i was shaking so much but i actually did it. The tablets she gave me are awful and make me feel like shit. Hopefully they will make me feel better soon. Told work why i am off n they were really good but i hate the way the personnel manager looks at me with shock...
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Doctors

09 February 2007
Posted by Claire22  
At the moment I am sat here starting to panic already. I want to stay in my cacoon forever and not open my door or interact with the world. If only it was so easy. I am going to the doctors in two days and although I havent booked the appointment yet I am already starting to panic.

As i arrive a the doctors I can feel the tension rising through...
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