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Dreams

25 July 2008
Posted by Claire22  
Everything we see or seem to see is a dream ... And everything we dream or seem to dream is real, or is it all just a real dream?

dreams are real, because you make them, your mind creates them from your 'self' and your imagination. So if you have ultimate creation of your dreams you have ultimate create over your life. Life if what you...
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worn down

26 June 2008
Posted by Claire22  
I wake up, new day, new expectations, new hope.

Wham!!

Nothing has changed. As soon as I leave the front door, I am looking over my shoulder. Waiting and wondering when he will next turn up. I am scared, petrified. The cars behind me, who are they? Are they familiar? Is it him? As soon as I step out the door I am a target. How do you get...
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Firmly shut

20 June 2008
Posted by Claire22  
I drive past the door. The door to the house I really want to stop at. The person that I want to see stood behind that door. The woman that always smelt safe, comfortable and welcoming. The door is closed. The recycle bin is outside waiting for the bin men. The two big panes of frosted glass look dark and unwelcoming. Whenever I pulled onto the...
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i'm 6

01 June 2008
Posted by Claire22  
This has been playing on my mind all day, seeing the memory makes me feel incredibly sick and tearful, I dont know what is behind it or what is still left to come out. This is what I have so far

I remember the teacher. Her name was Mrs Hodgkins or Hodgkinson I'm not sure. I was in year 2 at school. She was a big cheery lady in her fifties....
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Today I have had a really good day. The reason it has been so good is because I realised that sometimes the smallest thing can help people the most. An hour out of your day can make a big difference. That I have one of the best jobs in the world, teaching, and can shape people's lives. Give them the future that they deserve.

I made a...
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flashbacks triggers

15 May 2008
Posted by Claire22  
The bed covers went on the bed on tues. I had been sleeping on the matress with nothing on. No recollection of what the thing i was sleeping on was. No material feeling. No soft sheets. No flashbacks. Nothing to cacoon me in. Tues I wanted normality. To stop living like a freak. To put the covers on the bed and be normal. I got in bed tues night...
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14 days

03 May 2008
Posted by Claire22  
My voice is breaking, it is getting deeper inside me where no one can hear it or even see that my lips moved. I couldnt tell the health advisor anything. I muttered his name. That he comes into my work to 'talk'. That I let him into the house. Stupid, stupid, stupid. That the only emotion i could identify when he turns up at my work is...
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7 days after

26 April 2008
Posted by Claire22  
7 days that is all it has been, 7 days of hell since you hurt me. 7 days of torture. 7 days of being in constant pain. I sit here tonight in this room. This was my room but he took it. I had only just moved in. There was no memories in this house. In this room, in this bed. But there is now. I bought all new bedding. New pillows everything. But it...
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memory aged 10

20 March 2008
Posted by Claire22  
This has been playing in my head for a couple of weeks now. It is a memory that I completely forget but can remember it now like it was yesterday. I think now I am realising what role my mum played in my abuse repressed memories are appearing.

My mum always worked on a mon,tues and fri on afters. My great grandma looked after us on a mon, while...
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Hate for my mother

07 March 2008
Posted by Claire22  
She corners me last night. She knows I have not been well all week but she decides that it would be a great opportunity to talk. I cant go back to my room I am waiting for someone to take me somewhere. My brother is at work, it is her perfect opportunity just me and her. She starts harping on about the money my great grandma left me. How we could...
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