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Unreachable

05 April 2009
Posted by Claire22  
That one person. That can get under your skin. Can pick you apart without even trying. To get beyond the person you try to be and find the real you. He can whisper in your ear and tell you everything will be ok. Even when you know in your heart it wont be. But you believe him, you have to believe him. He is full of grand plans, the future and...
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Hard

27 February 2009
Posted by Claire22  
Something comes along and knocks all the wind out of your sails. You sit wondering where all the air has gone. It is everywhere yet it is nowhere. There is not enough to go round. The calming stillness of nothingness. There are no thoughts in your head. The canvas is blank. The mind empty. You slip the knife over your skin. Are you even still...
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Enough

25 January 2009
Posted by Claire22  
I dont feel like I can do this anymore. It is so so hard, too much struggle, too much pain. I dont know how to get
through this anymore and carry on.I am not even trying. It is mounting up more and more. How much is one person
suppose to take. I cant keep this going.I cant keep doing this. Adam had the right idea, get out while you can.
It eats...
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10 years

23 January 2009
Posted by Claire22  
It official 10 years since he left to go to a better place. 10 years since he chose to give up. Ten years since he hung himself with his England scarf from his bunk bed. He stayed 12years old forever.

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Labels

23 January 2009
Posted by Claire22  
Labels define people and give them character and a sense of belonging. So what happens when they work against you and dictate you. Because I am labelled as a 'vulnerable adult' by the local authority/police/any agency that wants to get involved they are allowed to tell me what to do, and if I think that is NOT the best thing for me, to...
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chance encounter

21 December 2008
Posted by Claire22  
He stands, I sit. He makes his way over. He sees me before I see him, he seeks me out. He could carry on he doesnt. Someone else might appear but my hope fades. I hold my breath and hope he doesnt notice me, I changed my hair colour it cant be me, right. Wrong! He knows, I guess he isnt as stupid as he looks. He talks and I reply, I watch his...
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Ashleigh

17 October 2008
Posted by Claire22  
She lays silent, sleeping her chest moving up and down. Rising and falling. So peacefully yet so prominent. Sit for hous watching, admiring the little miracle. Her eyelids tightly shut. Dreaming. Her skin so soft and papery. Just watching, hoping, dreaming. How can something so small and precious come from so much bad? She is perfect. Little...
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little girl

14 October 2008
Posted by Claire22  
Just keep pulling me apart. Pulling anything I have left away. I dont care. So what, who gives a dam? I am human there is a heart in there somewhere buried deep deep away. It beats and keeps me alive so it must be there. Really I have feelings, as much as I try not to have, I do. The wall around me is not strong enough. I still have them even if...
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ramble

13 October 2008
Posted by Claire22  
She infuriates me so much. Thinking she is the boss all powerful and great. That I should roll over backwards for her and do what she says. How dare she put me in a room with him. EURGH!!!! For fuck sake I hate her so much. He hasnt technically done anything wrong. He gives me the creeps, makes me REALLY uncomfortable. Something...
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Posted by Claire22  
If you find solid ground, why does it crumble under your feet? If you hold onto the branch, why does it snap? Why is there no ladder to help you climb out? Why is there no exit door you can hide behind for a while till the storm blows over?

How are you suppose to cope with things when there is more continually piling up. You cant see the end of...
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