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Lesson I learned today

Posted by StephEas , 29 April 2013 · 73 views

Today in therapy I learned a very important lesson, something Iíd never thought about before.

Apparently I like to take responsibility for everything and everyone. I like to save other people, always put them first, and with that forget to think about me. I guess thatís a problem SA survivors very often have.

My therapist asked me why I donít take any a...


A poem by actress Pauley Perrette I relate to so much...

Posted by StephEas , 19 April 2013 · 148 views


I keep considering picking up the phone
But have become accustomed to being alone
I have the numbers in my head
But just add them all together instead

Recite the line "Hello, It's Me."
As the cord sucks down my tragedy
And spews it out on the other end
Infecting a dear neglected friend

My darkness unleashed and then it's spread



Posted by StephEas , 15 April 2013 · 77 views

I've never been triggered by an episode of Criminal Minds before, but I just watched the episode "Restoration",
and ended up wishing I hadn't.

I watch Law and Order SVU regularly and I only got triggered very few occasions, So I don't really understand
why this criminal minds episode triggered me so much. Morgan telling the team he w...


Poem - A letter to HIM

Posted by StephEas , 10 April 2013 · 89 views

I know not much about what makes good poetry or what poetry is supposed to look like, but this is something I wrote today, I have never really tried to write anything to my abuser instead of about him. Here's the result:

A letter to HIM

You thought you gave
You gave jobs
You gave money
You gave compliments
You thought you gave

But you to...


A question I didn't have an answer to

Posted by StephEas , 07 April 2013 · 62 views

Someone whom I just recently told about my sexual abuse asked me a question today that I have no idea how to answer. She asked me if it was because of my sexual abuse that I am so shy and nervous and insecure. She wanted to know where my lack of self confidence came from, but I have no idea how to answer.

How can I seperate the parts of me that were caus...

April 2013


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