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I’m Usually a very happy person, everything makes me laugh and I’m good at helping an supporting people and I’m social and outgoing. But recently I’ve been very dark. If they gave me the choice of staying in or going out for a party, I’d rather stay home. I’m a PARTY ANIMAL. It doesn’t make sense, And all I have been doing all week is get angry, start fights or just ignore people. I’m barely angry but right now I’m RAGING.
I think it has to do with the fact that I haven’t seen my T for two months or so and then suddenly I had an appointment. I just cried and yelled that day. I think it because she made me realize so many things and it made me SO angry that mom was the reason of it all and she is STILL doing it! Sub-consciously though, but STILL. It hurts like you wouldn’t believe. They all expressed sorrow to me but mom says I’m delusional. OKAY MOM.
This week has been mushy for me. I can’t say the word love without tearing or see romantic movies or anything of love. Mom never taught me to love, actually both my parents. The lack of feeling of that just tears me apart. I just envy people who love or are loved by their family. I die a little.
I haven’t been this depressed since January. And January wasn’t this bad! It was just a lot of crying and hurting my self but this time its ALL rage and staggering agony of realization.
It’s just a period I’ll pass through.. if God is willing
I think it has to do with the fact that I haven’t seen my T for two months or so and then suddenly I had an appointment. I just cried and yelled that day. I think it because she made me realize so many things and it made me SO angry that mom was the reason of it all and she is STILL doing it! Sub-consciously though, but STILL. It hurts like you wouldn’t believe. They all expressed sorrow to me but mom says I’m delusional. OKAY MOM.
This week has been mushy for me. I can’t say the word love without tearing or see romantic movies or anything of love. Mom never taught me to love, actually both my parents. The lack of feeling of that just tears me apart. I just envy people who love or are loved by their family. I die a little.
I haven’t been this depressed since January. And January wasn’t this bad! It was just a lot of crying and hurting my self but this time its ALL rage and staggering agony of realization.
It’s just a period I’ll pass through.. if God is willing
