Pandora's Aquarium: Running away to the circus - Pandora's Aquarium

well while my step-dad and little sister are gone to the circus in town i'm stuck home with my two dogs who i adore there sleeping next to me at the moment very warm lol :)/> and doing homework i'm a freshman in college for criminal justice and in the spring will be attending itt tech for criminology and forensic technology in NC were my grandparents live but while my sister and step-dad are gone even though i was invited i declined why not because i had homework but because i don't like large groups of people anymore i cant stand someone sitting behind me or standing behind me just makes me worry.so they will come back and i will see all the pictures my sister took and start to get tears in my eyes because there are so many things now that i don't do because i worry to much or it scares me to do.i just don't know why people don't understand why i don't like large groups of people or going out much i mean even the people closest to me who know my past story maybe i will tell it to you sometime but for know i just don't understand to me its self explanatory but i just don't know understand why the people closest to me don't understand or see things the way i see them when i explain them to them is it to much to ask for them to understand?
~SLC~