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I don't know what to do anymore I'm so lost

Posted by slcangel , 15 July 2015 · 142 views

Well today was okay for the most part until about noon an then idk what happened something snapped an I just started to feel like all I wanted to do was burst into tears. Am I completely crazy to think its all because I miss my gf like crazy an the fact that I feel so safe an protected when I'm with her that when I'm not with her I feel like I'm gonna fal...


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Am I worth it

Posted by slcangel , 06 April 2015 · 217 views

Well today was a good day to start with then I don't know what happened. I had a doctors appointment to talk about anxiety meds for my upcoming trip next month (15hrs on a bus with transfers an layovers). Then I got home an was talking to my girlfriend and something changed for some reason so I took a shower thinking maybe it would help me feel better but...


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feel so alone

Posted by slcangel , 23 July 2013 · 152 views

in the mist of everything going on in my life my PTSD symptoms have been much better than in the past but i do get really bad flashbacks when i have one. my uncles wedding was this past weekend and it was not good at all it just seemed like i wasn't there i mean i was walking around talking to people an taking pictures but it felt like i was watching...


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Psychological realization so confused

Posted by slcangel , 07 March 2013 · 205 views

ok this is a little weird to put on here seen so has nothing to do with me but for some reason it pisses me off and i'm in tears right now two reason my parents think i'm stupid and just the topic i guess. so my sister who is 10 i guess was looking at porn today while i was supposed to be watching her but i was studying an thought she was downstai...


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i just cant catch a break

Posted by slcangel , 02 March 2013 · 156 views

sitting in bio lab today i just couldn't concentrate at all no matter what i did i mean yes learning the bones of the body are not the funnest thing to learn but even though i heard what he said i wasn't paying attention i was just in my own little hell i should say i didn't realize i was doing this but after class my best friend who i think o...


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scared

Posted by slcangel , 01 March 2013 · 138 views

today was a little better than yesterday i am still scared and jumpy at everything but it's getting a little better this site and all the support have really helped a lot and reading what other people have to say that they feel the same sometimes makes me feel better. i also decided today to post my story it took me hours to write because i had to wri...


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Babies babies babies why?

Posted by slcangel , 28 February 2013 · 118 views

so through out my years of abuse i have had 3 miscarriages the first was ok because i was 12 i was 15 with the 2nd and it was just before my 18th birthday with the 3rd. it breaks my heart everyday to see pregnant people and little babys because for me its just like it's not fair they get to keep there baby and mine had to die. it makes me sad to even...


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the thoughts that i need a key to lock away but i don't need a key to open why

Posted by slcangel , 28 February 2013 · 79 views

sitting here with all the thought in the world in my head that something anything is going to go wrong i don't know why but the feeling never goes away i always think somethings going to happen were ever i am in the car thing were gonna get in an accident or in a building that someones gonna come in an shoot everyone or at home even that someones gonn...


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the thoughts that i need a key to lock away but i don't need a key to open why

Posted by slcangel , 28 February 2013 · 78 views

sitting here with all the thought in the world in my head that something anything is going to go wrong i don't know why but the feeling never goes away i always think somethings going to happen were ever i am in the car thing were gonna get in an accident or in a building that someones gonna come in an shoot everyone or at home even that someones gonn...


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the nervousness that just wont go away

Posted by slcangel , 27 February 2013 · 94 views

so sitting in sociology class today and all of a sudden just started to feel like i was being choked granted i have been before by my ex while he was raping why i dont usually were things tightly to my neck my sweatshirts have to fit just right and shirts around my neck or i end up cutting off the thick fabric around my neck to make it looser so anywho to...


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Running away to the circus

Posted by slcangel , 26 February 2013 · 89 views

well while my step-dad and little sister are gone to the circus in town i'm stuck home with my two dogs who i adore there sleeping next to me at the moment very warm lol :) and doing homework i'm a freshman in college for criminal justice and in the spring will be attending itt tech for criminology and forensic technology in NC were my grandparent...





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