In a single moment!
I'm up, I'm down.
Happy and Sad,
Scared and Angry.
Tense then relaxed.
Words and feelings whirling and swirling around in my head.
Everything scrambled and not making sense.
I want to be around people, but only so I don't feel alone.
I don't want to talk, I only want to listen,
I want to feel but at the same time I want to be numb.
I want to be happy but without having to make all this effort.
I'm tired, I'm wired, I'm erratic, I'm scared.
I want to run and punch,
I want to scream and shout.
I want to dance to the music and be held in its beat.
I want this to be over, I want to sleep...