cant move forward
I have been thinking about my relationship with my partenr. I t has been on and off for years. I dont attually know if im with him or not becuase if i say i am with him i get freaked out that i have to feel a certain way and if i say i not with him i get deoressed lonely and scared. Im starting to think that i dont want to becaome more independant because it could lead to loss of the relationship even if that may be what in the end i want..I know it would be a good thing to be more able to do things on my own but i just cant find the energy or enthusiasm and i think this deep down is what is stopping me.