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i have no friends.

Posted by bluebird88 , 24 January 2013 · 54 views

i feel so so absolutely alone. was i meant to be alone and friendless?
i am an epileptic.
i have always been a weird kid. just... weird. i think i was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.
and now with the sexual assault and going thru that- the few friends that i did have- completely abandoned me. my best friend since fifth grade started datin...


Animated (poem)

Posted by bluebird88 , 24 January 2013 · 35 views

I am Alice and I am Tinkerbell and I am falling
down that
flashing black and white rabbit
hole and I am flying into
faces. Arms flailing, arms
crossed. Blonde-hair-blue-eyed
"What is with that girl?" they always ask.
Don't worry.
I am simply falling despite my wings again-
to where- I am unsure. I do not worry. I...


borderline (a poem)

Posted by bluebird88 , 24 January 2013 · 38 views

There isn't anything beyond this porch.
The world exists beyond this porch.
The ash tray's listless upon this porch.
The biker persists despite this porch.
A home, a house,
a breath of air, a carcinogen,
an question to a God-awful answer:
this porch.
The planks nailed down -precise or chaotic?
The 2X4's -aware of their oblivion?
Me -etching a...


who gives.

Posted by bluebird88 , 24 January 2013 · 45 views

i don't feel like going here will do me any good. i am a hopeless case. i have created 2 accounts on here before but i wasn't very good at expressing myself. at one point somebody said "i'm sorry, but i just can't relate to you."

i feel so, so lost and desperate and shitty and useless. there's no fucking point. nothing will he...

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