T: Good evening Australia! It's 7pm, how is your memory?
T: .......... you're very quiet today
Me: I'm always quiet
T: not like today you're not. Anylyzing stuff...
T: yes Eve, what is it?
Me: You won't hurt me will you?
T: No, I will not hurt you Eve.
Me: And how do I know that?
T: I think you will have to trust me. Can you do that?
Me: ugh do I have a choice?
T: I'm not going anywhere. I'm here today and will be here for as long as you need me alrig...
I was abused by a man, who I trusted very much. I thought he was my friend even after the abuse happened. He manipulated me and I had no idea, made me do things I didn't want to do and which I forgot the next day. I don...
(translated from German)
I'm the type of girl that
- even when she has million reasons to leave, she still looks for one to stay.
- apparently always cares too much for others but never enough for herself.
- will turn up her TV, to prevent others from hearing her screams and...
defende nos in proelio, contra nequitiam et insidias diaboli esto praesidium.
Imperet illi Deus, supplices deprecamur:
tuque, Princeps militiae caelestis,
Satanam aliosque spiritus malignos,
qui ad perditionem animarum pervagantur in mundo,
in infernum detrude.
SAINT Michael the Archangel,
"You donít deserve anyone to love you or care about you ever" ...they tell us stuff and we try to fight it in our heads, try to protect our hearts from the destructive power of their words. But one day, when we get very very tired of fighting, protecting and being strong we start believing them. And their words...
2)when you think you cannot feel any worse - you can
3)when you think you reached the very bottom - you didn't. there is always a hidden basement entry leading you to the lowest low
4)when you think you can finally start feeling free - you can't, there will always be someone reminding you of...
Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electri...
14 weeks and only 8 hrs of sleep.
Been given 24 h...
Listening to Brian Crain and thinking how much I miss playing piano and how much I loved it when I was a kid. How much I loved it before they hurt me.
There was a piano in his office. I remember him sitting there "time to play my little bitch". I remember t...
I believed that I could change myself,that the past could be undone, but I carry on my back the burdens time always reveals. In the lonely light of morning, in the wound that would not heal it's the bitter taste of losing everything I've held so dear.
11 weeks without sleep. Keep on getting nose bleeds. I thought I remembered everything. But there is more. So much more.
It looks like a big part of my disturbing memories has been pushed out of my conscious mind. And now itís all coming back to me. Every day new flashbacks hit me so hard that I need to sit down or stop what...
I've gotta stop my mind working overtime. It's driving me insane. It will not let me liv...
But no shoulder to lean on.
I think I'd like someone to be there for me. Someone to...
I know they say it helps. Talking about our issues. Pain shared is pain halved. They say there are people out there who know how to help us go through our messed up lives. Certified people who know how to help us fight our very private war that we seem to lose when fighting it alone. Trained people who know how to talk to us about our painful stuff....
Maggie Fitzgerald: Keep my left up?
Frankie Dunn: No. It Is to protect yourself at all times. Now, what is the rule?
Maggie Fitzgerald: Protect myself at all times.
Frankie Dunn: Good. Good.
Feel confused today. Think about running away again. Sweden. Sounds nice. I like Sweden. Always wan...
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