as soon as
Not sure why I'm still here and why I haven't left yet. Missing home. Don't know where home is. My God, I miss so many people and so many things that I don't remember, but keep in my heart, it's so confusing and frustrating. And painful. I try to be strong, but I find myself struggling and giving up more and more every day. How and where can you find strength and hope when all you feel is helplessness and hopelessness. Emptiness. Memory loss. sleepless nights. Lonely days without meaning. I've done so many things wrong while being here. I've hurt someone again I think and have no idea how to fix it.
It's time to go home. Wherever that might be.