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last friday night

Posted by EVH , 11 August 2013 · 75 views

Trying to recover from Friday night. Not easy at all. Trying hard anyway.

Was it another lesson from the universe?

Late nights & early mornings, night by night, day by day, running in circles. Didn't sleep last night. Sleep won't come tonight either. Trying to escape this chaos in my head. In my heart. My empty eyes scare me. The castle got bigger, I'm lost. The walls got taller. The door bricked up. The moat uncrossable.

I'm not even angry. I feel resigned. After the nervous breakdown on Saturday morning I'm feeling empty, trapped in my mind. I miss the silence in my head. I miss the sun rising in my heart every day. The colours of my soul. I miss safe thoughts and feelings. I miss a peaceful sleep. I miss myself. I miss you Eve. Where'd you go? Please come back.

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