Thought about going to the beach today and listen to the ocean. To look at the big water. To feel the sand under my feet. But I would just get so lost on my way there or back home. Couldn't do my T-homework yesterday, again. Just kept staring at all the words and pictures and didn't know the answers. Even google knows that the animal in tac = cat. I didn't.
Time to make big decisions. Not ready yet though. I'm tired and in pain and depressed. avoid mirrors. avoid touching my own body, it's disgusting. I'll stay in bed for a while longer. How about spending my whole life in bed? It's gonna be a lonely one anyway. Or do you know someone who likes to hang out with a not talking, brain damaged raped several times in every possible way girl? Cause I don't. Even I don't want to hang out with my disgusting stupid self.
"It is silence that most needs an answering -- when I can no longer speak, hear me."