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Posted by EVH   in T-Sessions, Uncategorized
I've learned that

- it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it
- the most important thing in communication is to hear what isn't being said
- knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens
- when a defining moment comes along, you can do one of two things. Define the moment, or let the moment define you
- no one can go...
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I just want to scream

22 May 2013
Posted by EVH   in Uncategorized, T-Sessions
Jesus I feel so exhausted, devastated, desperate............

I want to heal I do but I feel like I can't walk this pathway. I'm back where I was. Flasbacks, headaches, nausea, anger, pain, frustration, sitting and staring at the fucking wall. I've been there. It's happenieng again. I stopped living in silence. And? I'm falling...
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More and more

22 May 2013
Posted by EVH   in Uncategorized, T-Sessions
More and more OBEs. More and more different stuff. Unanswered stuff. Overwhelming stuff. Scary stuff. feel like going crazy. "No more running. Stand strong" ; "Don't feel tiny. Feel strong. Fuckers haven't got you yet." ; "keep pushing forward".

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Posted by EVH   in Uncategorized, T-Sessions
(Another brilliant T-session, one of the best so far, helped me discover many things, made me sad though; Thanks T for the recordings. Translation from German)

T: Good evening Australia! It's 7pm, how is your memory?
Me: ok

T: .......... you're very quiet today
Me: I'm always quiet
T: not like...
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Posted by EVH   in Uncategorized, T-Sessions
(T-session; Translated from German)

Me: Doc?
T: yes Eve, what is it?
Me: You won't hurt me will you?
T: No, I will not hurt you Eve.
Me: And how do I know that?
T: I think you will have to trust me. Can you do that?
Me: ugh do I have a choice?
T: I'm not going anywhere. I'm here...
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Anyone?

20 May 2013
Posted by EVH   in Uncategorized, T-Sessions
Ok, I need to get it out before my next T-session. I feel so overwhelmed and scared. I feel so lost in my chaos, in my little world.

I was abused by a man, who I trusted very much. I thought he was my friend even after the abuse happened. He manipulated me and I had no idea, made me do things I didn't want to do and which I forgot the next...
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Posted by EVH   in Uncategorized, T-Sessions
What type of girl are you? What would you like to change about this girl?
(translated from German)

I'm the type of girl that
- even when she has million reasons to leave, she still looks for one to stay.
- apparently always cares too much for others but never enough for herself.
- will turn up her TV, to prevent others from hearing...
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Posted by EVH   in T-Sessions
[center]SANCTE Michael Archangele,
defende nos in proelio, contra nequitiam et insidias diaboli esto praesidium.
Imperet illi Deus, supplices deprecamur:
tuque, Princeps militiae caelestis,
Satanam aliosque spiritus malignos,
qui ad perditionem animarum pervagantur in mundo,
divina virtute,
in infernum detrude.
Amen....
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3 weeks

18 May 2013
Posted by EVH  
3 weeks pregnant

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Losing a friend

15 May 2013
Posted by EVH  
The last few weeks were very tough for me but for the first time in my life I had a friend liek her. Devoted, sticking by till the end, not giving up on me, believing in me and understanding me. She was my light in the darkness. I loved to talk to her. I loved to listen to her. She was holding my hand through a very tough time. And I destroyed it....
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