I wish that this was easier...Every day is just a constant reminder. I sit and think...my mind just goes crazy thinking of all the things that has happended. Its soo hard to see the good in life when im constantly bombarded with SHIT!...I get upset that right now nothing can be done- I feel like its a losing cause. I told basically to see him rot in jail...so I had to relive everything..they got my hopes up telling me that they he would serve 40 years in prison...and HE GOT OFF ALL CHARGES...how the hell do you cope, when in the back of your mind all you can think about is that he is doing it to others. All I wanted to do was protect...fucking justice system.
I feel like everyday im just waiting for the bad news to come..I know that sounds really pessimistic, but that is how it has been. just a constant battle and life is winning!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
when will the misery stop. I would just like to get to a point where the pain isnt so unbearable...it just seems so painful and like that is never going to happen. People tell me, I just have to wait and it will get better in time...I guess im just hoping to heal so much faster and im upset at the fact that i cant move this along