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19 May 2013
Posted by one.day.  
What happens when everything seems to have lost its beauty? The little bits of happiness unravelled into nothing. The morning sun, the warm breeze, a smile, the sand under your feet, the night sky, the echoes of the waves. Nothing but dark. Empty. Void.

What happens when there is no energy to fight? Time seems to just pass. Nothing of...
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Posted by one.day.   in Rambles
:trigger:/>/ - language used, things he said to me

'Your just a dirty piece of scum, that I have to put up with while your mother is s***ing over men, no wonder she left you'.

Did you think about me, mum? Did it ever cross your mind? Why did you leave me? I told you the truth and you left me with that monster for years. You said you...
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if they listened

20 April 2013
Posted by one.day.   in Rambles
:trigger:/>
Doesn't really make sense - just rambles. Can't sleep :(/>
I feel so angry and stupid. I know I shouldn't (maybe), I just fall so easily for the same traps, the same bad situations, to feel I need to be kept punished. I just want to let go and one day show them, I could be worth more.

No one noticed, even when they were...
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Birthday

18 April 2013
Posted by one.day.   in Rambles
Hold my hand - what if I let go? - You won't, I'm holding it tight. I'm right by you. Trust me, it'll be okay.

I'm the same age as you were now. When you went to sleep. That's how much time has passed. I don't want to be older than you. Your my big sister.

Just count the stars with me - there's too many - and...
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Posted by one.day.   in Here and Now - my story
I just want it to go away. I felt so triggered. I still do but its easing a little. I haven't slept for days but I'm so tired.

I finally visited the hospital last night. Everything is okay. I couldn't bring myself to say what happened. I don't know if they believed me.

No one said anything nasty. Just one young nurse asked how...
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Memories

27 March 2013
Posted by one.day.   in Its all in the Past? - my story, Rambles
I want it to go away. I want to feel clean and stop the memories. I want my sister to be here. I want the guilt to move away. I wish as the words are written, the past will disappear.

:trigger:/>/>

He had come home. My sister held my hand. My brother whispered that we should go. He crashed through the front door. The side table and ornaments...
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anniversary

15 March 2013
Posted by one.day.   in Rambles
Didn't have the right mind to post it a few days ago.
Sis, I miss you. My heart splits a litle more each year. This shouldn't have been the end. I just have hope you are with little Ella. You kept me alive, Sis but I didn't save you. I hate myself for it but its never going to bring you back. Its never going to fill the void and ache...
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Secondary Survivor

13 March 2013
Posted by one.day.   in Rambles
I found my partners old sketchbook from years ago and he's let me share this:
To be woken in the night by her nightmares, her past echoing into the present as she cries in her sleep. Being unable to reach out and tell her its not real. When maybe it was real.

To see her struggling through the day, not knowing what she is holding inside. Not...
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Nics Saved Me

28 January 2013
Posted by one.day.   in Its all in the Past? - my story, Rambles
*Triggers*
*abuse, su mention*
:trigger:/>/>/>

I miss her so much.







My sister and I looked at each other. This would be his new game. He knew we would both go to him. We were trying to save each other. He would find this funny. It would mean that day, we would both get hurt.

At night, my sister and I would beg each other, not to...
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I Miss You

11 January 2013
Posted by one.day.  
Its been two years since you were taken away from us. I'm sorry I didn't visit you today but I don't think you are there. You are free somewhere, everywhere. I know everyone misses you ever so much. I also think you wouldn't want us to feel this aching pain but I admit it hasn't stopped since that day. Are you disappointed with...
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