Also my family are driving me crazy. I can't smoke because I feel like they judge me (its my aunt, my cousin and his gf). I don't know if its that but they are so rude and ill mannered to everyone especially to my mum, sister and bf. I'm the unnoticed one that they forget, even now I'm older. Its spiteful and childish things. I don't want to be at their level but I can feel my anger rising and rising. I just want my home, my bubble - does that make sense? I feel like I can't say anything but I'm biting my tongue. I could cry. I really could.