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Rambling as usual

Over the last 2 days i have tried sitting down at the computer and writing in my diary, neiher have been vey sucsessful. Nothings been coming out, i can't seem to start. I know theres stuff in my head i want to get out.
I think this is going to be a lot of rambling.

I really hope i can do the things i want to get done today. Just sorting through some stuff and housework, i say just.. it never feels like just. I know i'll feel better afterwards, my bf is still sleeping so i can't get started yet.
The sleeping/nightmarres situation aren't getting any better, i know i could probably do more to help myself like having a proper routine. I probably sound patthetic but i feel like i won't even be able to get that right. Tonight i should try i think. Change of subject..

Yesterday was emotionally exhauting, in the morning i don't know where my head was. I was up, feeling really down funny that. Anyway i went through to the bedroom and stormed back out ? My bf came through later and i just told him it wasn't working. I have posted about the problems in my relationship (i can't be bothered explaining here). I cried alot, got some anger out admittedley some misdirected..We argued and both cried. No really sure how it went from that to being okay again but it did. I don't know how i feel. I don't want the relationship to be over but i need to feel repected.
Ah i think the next blog/post will be getting more of that out. For now i'll leave it there i think.
 

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