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In the right direction

Posted by MissHannah , 09 March 2013 · 44 views

On Thursday I had my 3rd appointment with A at home, she's really happy with the progress I'm making. The biggest difference I'm noticing is how I'm thinking. Before she arrived I was geting anxious because I wasn't ready yet but suddenly I started thinking it's just the adrenaline etc. That's a big help to me, a part in th...


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Restless

Posted by MissHannah , 26 February 2013 · 64 views

I'm anxious and need to do something so I decided to write something here. Something I'm still finding hard is to let myself go when I do decide to, not just here but wherever. It isn't about how much or what I say really, it's how I feel. Even in personal diaries I can't be totally honest and let my emotions come out properly, well ce...


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A litlle update

Posted by MissHannah , 23 February 2013 · 47 views

The last time I wrote something here I think was after my first therapy appointment for Agoraphobia and anxiety. The nurse A left me with progressive musicle relaxtion excercises to pratice, though I admit I have been struggling with these. The first time I tried it in the bath and my muscles were aching, when I lay down afterwards I did feel more relaxe...


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Recent changes

Posted by MissHannah , 14 February 2013 · 58 views

It has been a little while since I have been here properly due to a few reasons. One being I was finding it impossible to concentrate on anything without focusing on what I had to first. Another being I was finding it hard to be here without being triggered. I think I made the right choice in taking some time, a few things have changed and overall I feel...


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Scary next step

Posted by MissHannah , 30 January 2013 · 61 views

The last few days have been pretty tough, with alot of new things on my mind and not enough sleep I started to feel a bit overwhelmed by it all.
Last night I tried to reply to messages and blog somewhere else, in the end I had to accept my brain simply needed a rest.

In the months since that I have been here theres so much that I have learned. I'm fa...


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Little me?

Posted by MissHannah , 23 January 2013 · 73 views

I posted something about this, DID like syptoms recently.

Today I feel really disconnected, whther that is the right word I don't know. Nor do I care.
I don't care what I have, what its called or what anyone thinks. I just want to be understood.

I'm terrified that the more and more stuff I need to talk about here that no one will keep up wit...


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Confused.

Posted by MissHannah , 13 January 2013 · 37 views

I remember her walking in and seeing us. I remember he looked embarassed and moved away, pretty quickly. I don't remember him leaving.
I remember being in the bedroom, with her shouting and screaming at me. She wanted me to tell her we had been doing.

I don't remeber the exact words of those questions, i know what they were implying though. I re...


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Ramblings for the morning

Posted by MissHannah , 11 January 2013 · 37 views

The 5 or so days since going to the hospital havenít been that much better. The flashbacks have continued to go on. Usually, they donít happen this close together. I say usually, nothing is that regular really. What iím finding hardest at the moment is the new memories coming up, along with looking at others again and seeing them for what they were..

I...


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My visit to the hospial

Posted by MissHannah , 05 January 2013 · 42 views

Tw mention of su feelings.



For a few days my head felt clearer. My depression felt properly lifted for the first time in a while. I think this is the reason i had new flashbacks and new memories.

Usually when i have a flashback it's to what happened to me when i was little, this time it was to things that my ex did. Earlier in the day i remember t...


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More?

Posted by MissHannah , 31 December 2012 · 34 views

Your silence, in your eyes
not lies but
protection.






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