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Chewing gum

Posted by Simpletruth , 09 December 2013 · 223 views

And somewhere along these lines,
I figured that I'd have to plough through my head,
And wait for the dread.
The horror.
The disgust.
The eventual tears.
That didn't qualify as the PMSing strife that you blamed all these years.
And goodness,
God knows I'd like to even blame a past,
That is partially responsible for this,
But I can't trust any of this,
Us,...


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United maladies

Posted by Simpletruth , in Poetry, Personal 27 November 2013 · 124 views

A malady, *
Isn't that what it's called?
That you can relate to this tragedy,
My downfall? *
I'm trying not to cry at the beautiful sighs,
And joint hugs,*
Holding hands,
Comfort swinging from left to right,
Like a pendulum,
No home,*
No rest,
Both deserved,*
A joint test,
Just a malady,*
Right?
This isn't one on one. *
This isn't focused fixing.
And I'm...


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Nightmares

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 24 November 2013 · 121 views

I'm watching horror.
I'm craving gore,
I'm trying to get as far away as possible from my head.
It's inside.
So deep
So raw
So I'm clouding it with uglier stuff
Dumb right?
But it hurts
And I'm scared
So terrified
He wouldn't commit,
Nope,
He'd just taunt me
Over and over
So the fear never died,
I was always waiting to be hurt in totality,
Waiting for the...


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Let's talk

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 18 November 2013 · 169 views

Do I even feel anything?
Am I sad?
We'll never know now will we?
Because I can't cry now...
And the sorrow is a distant, lingering memory.
I have a smile that's plastered on my face.
I'm not pretending,
Yet it's frozen in place.
I have no master,
But I'm tegretol's puppet,
And yet without it,
I'm crumbling,
Not functioning,
Death.
So pick a side?
Or rathe...


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How do you do it?

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal, Poetry 18 November 2013 · 115 views

Because I can't.
I can't do normal.
Or pessimistic.
Or confused.
I can only do,
Okay enough so no one asks questions.
Fine enough so no one sees scars.
So tell me.
How do you do it?
And I'm sitting here,
In this unprotected room,
Wondering how people just sleep.
How do they do that?
So I try not to think about it.
My lack of air,
My failing mental faculti...


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Another dream

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 16 November 2013 · 198 views

I made out with you.
Again.
And again
And again.
And I didn't wake up disturbed.
Because I liked it.
I'm disgusting.
A disgusting waste of space.


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Running away

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 13 November 2013 · 180 views

Your heart is open.
And you're patient,
But you're honest.
This is want you want.
Us,
Me.
But I'm not sure if I'm ready to be that close to someone else.
To be open.
Vulnerable,
Able to be hurt.
Yet your words linger,
But I'm afraid of arms,
I'm afraid of touch.
I'm so damn afraid of loving anyone this much.
Again.
Running away.
Right now I'm running away.


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Screaming tw

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 11 November 2013 · 129 views

It didn't go away.
It's there,
Bubbling beneath the surface.
The pain,
The hell,
The screams,
The confusion,
The fear.
And every time I forget to take my medication,
I remember,
I realize
And it scars the hell out if me.
I'm petrified.
God forbid I run out.
And then it comes for me.
Then it surrounds and swarms me.
And then it begins to recede.
But it's...


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Scared

Posted by Simpletruth , in Poetry, Personal 11 November 2013 · 101 views

Scared.
Because maybe if I start listening to that song,
I won't stop.
Maybe it'll be so unbelievably true,
And I'm not pretending
And this is not a rebound,
Maybe I'm truly in love with you.
Or maybe I'm still in pain looking for someone to lick open wounds,
And make me feel less alone.
Can both me true?
I'm so wrapped up in messy sheets that I can't se...


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Tell me truth: (four word rhyme)

Posted by Simpletruth , in Poetry 04 November 2013 · 167 views

I'm not a screamer,*
But I'm definitely loud,
I'm asking you to take these walls down,*
And let it all fall out,
Into the open,*
Pour out from the skies,
Out of your mouth*
I am waiting,
To hear you.
So please do not worry,*
About people and gore,
I'm staying right here,*
Keeping you close,
A look into your eyes,*
And a kiss upon your nose.






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