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01 March 2013

Posted by Simpletruth

I miss your lips.
I miss your touch.
I miss everything that is male and firm and strong about you.
I miss being in your arms.
Protected.
I'm tired.
I get that I need to learn to live on my own.
But I miss your strength.
I miss you.

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Better.

27 February 2013

Posted by Simpletruth

Hope really makes people happier.
I woke up with a smile,
For the first time in a while.

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Venting.

25 February 2013

Posted by Simpletruth in Personal

I miss you.
I miss you so much.
There's no one to talk to.
No kind words.
God exists.
And I'm eternally grateful.
But I miss your ever-present presence.
I really thought you'd be the common denominator in my life.
Always.
This month has been terrible in that regard.
Loneliness.
The isolation is sickening.
I really need close...

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Cut me open?

16 January 2013

Posted by Simpletruth in Uncategorized, Personal

Just remove all the bad stuff.
The disgusting parts.
The me I hate.
But then again isn't that all the parts?
Sigh.
I hate myself so much.
Disgust seeps through every pore.
And they're angry words.
And mental apologies are generated.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
I'm sorry that I think I'm worthless.
I'm trying so hard to be normal.
So...

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Tags: Worthless, stupid, foolish

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Cut me open?

16 January 2013

Posted by Simpletruth in Uncategorized, Personal

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Tags: Worthless, stupid, foolish

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Thanks

13 January 2013

Posted by Simpletruth in Personal

I sit in your office squirming.
Because I know what you're about to do.
"Childhood trauma"? You say in that voice. Like I'm making it up. Like it doesn't qualify. Like its not important. I already know that I'm being foolish. I don't need help to think that.
So thanks.
Thanks for belittling me. I needed that.
Thanks...

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Confused

15 December 2012

Posted by Simpletruth

My sexuality is all over the place.
You played with demons.
They played with me.
What was I supposed to do?
I let it slide.
I let it slide.
You were a child.
Somehow that translated into abuse,
Minimized.
You hurt me.
It hurt.
You confused me.
Sigh.

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Sigh

13 December 2012

Posted by Simpletruth in Personal

I'm not allowed to feel this way.
It wasn't that bad.
So stop feeling sorry for yourself.
I sit on this forum full of hurt people
And stare at my own hands in disgust.
I'm not ruined enough to fit in here.
I'm not broken enough.
In my own head I'm shattered.
But the comparisons don't add up.
Please,
Someone help me,
While...

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Two words

06 October 2012

Posted by Simpletruth in Personal

Two words.
They resonate repeatedly.
Over and over.
Over and over.
Im petrified of them.
I'm scared.
I'm scared.
Two words.
Two words.
Just two words.