Exploring Pain tw
Where I can't hide behind passwords.
Where I can know that it's real.
I'm in pain.
I've been in pain for a few days now.
But I'm in pain.
In therapy, the psychologist asked if I wanted to go through this process.
If I was willing to truly be vulnerable.
I'm scared to.
Why should I?
To have people betray my trust?
I had a mini flashback of my childhood.
I was playing with dolls and they were doing disgusting confusing things to each other.
I have so many patches missing in my memory.
It's really hard.
And I feel all alone.
Like I have no support.
My parents don't know.
And I feel like I'm always supporting the ones that do.
Trying not to be too sad.
Trying not to say too much.
I'm so alone.
And I can't let anyone in,
So I'm going to remain alone.