Okay maybe not fear.
But I'm anxious,
I don't want to miss you.
I don't want to need you.
There are rules!
My brain is pissed.
And there has been a bit of all.
Today has been harder.
Because there is a truth that now exists.
Can we make that truth an illusion?
Can we pretend that I'm a liar,
And you're confused?
Because manipulation was easier.
But true feelings,
It's overwhelming me.
I feel like I'm suffocating.
And I'm afraid that I'll crave what you can provide,
And forget that you're a person,
Someone with feelings,
Someone with emotions.
I'm just running scared.
I don't want to break this,
I don't want to ruin you.
I don't want my position to consume you.
I don't want to lie.
I don't want to spend all day talking about how we feel.
I don't want to spend time comparing 'this' to the past.
I don't want to hide my head in the sand.
I like love.
But the truth is,
I like you too.