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Sigh

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 15 July 2013 · 32 views

Well I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that he's there and I'm here,
I'm sorry that I feel this way,
I'm sorry.
But I'm tired.
Oh so tired.
I just can do this.
I'm tired.
Too tired to this anymore.


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An ode to confusion

Posted by Simpletruth , in Poetry, Personal 02 July 2013 · 45 views

I heard your voice streaming through the waves of distance.
But the speckled sounds contained more than the semantics of verbatim.
Emotions that lay dormant,
Patted firmly into ice cubes of remorse,
Began to melt,
And there I felt,
Foolish.
How could love so permanent, so pure, so green,
Turn into a babbling mess of anecdotes and agreements?
Was I so desp...


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The timeline of the night

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 24 June 2013 · 48 views

He talks...
Maybe my pain is just too close to his...
I'm too much.
I'm tired.
You should go.
Lost in translation.
Lost down the rabbit hole.
But I smile....
It's odd...
Sleepy...
Circle time.
Yawn?


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I'm not sure where this is going...

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 16 June 2013 · 36 views

If you become my height,
That'll be the final straw...
Closer to what I'm pretending not to think...
Closer to what I'm pretending doesn't exist.
Like doesn't lead to love.
It doesn't.
It doesn't, right?
Right.
Great.


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Ruined.Tired.Dying.

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 07 June 2013 · 47 views

That was the last straw.
Hope that I didn't have has gone.
I loved him.
I love him?
It doesn't matter.
I probably can't run away even.
I tried so damn hard.
So damn hard.
I know that they're there in the kitchen.
I just want to pick them up.
And erase the pain

Please, someone, anyone, rescue me?
It hurts so bad I can barely taste my own l...


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Venting.

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 25 February 2013 · 35 views

I miss you.
I miss you so much.
There's no one to talk to.
No kind words.
God exists.
And I'm eternally grateful.
But I miss your ever-present presence.
I really thought you'd be the common denominator in my life.
Always.
This month has been terrible in that regard.
Loneliness.
The isolation is sickening.
I really need close friends,
But my li...


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Cut me open?

Posted by Simpletruth , in Uncategorized, Personal 16 January 2013 · 69 views

Just remove all the bad stuff.
The disgusting parts.
The me I hate.
But then again isn't that all the parts?
Sigh.
I hate myself so much.
Disgust seeps through every pore.
And they're angry words.
And mental apologies are generated.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
I'm sorry that I think I'm worthless.
I'm trying so hard to be normal.
So hard.
For...


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Cut me open?

Posted by Simpletruth , in Uncategorized, Personal 16 January 2013 · 50 views

Just remove all the bad stuff.
The disgusting parts.
The me I hate.
But then again isn't that all the parts?
Sigh.
I hate myself so much.
Disgust seeps through every pore.
And they're angry words.
And mental apologies are generated.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
I'm sorry that I think I'm worthless.
I'm trying so hard to be normal.
So hard.
For...


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Thanks

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 13 January 2013 · 44 views

I sit in your office squirming.
Because I know what you're about to do.
"Childhood trauma"? You say in that voice. Like I'm making it up. Like it doesn't qualify. Like its not important. I already know that I'm being foolish. I don't need help to think that.
So thanks.
Thanks for belittling me. I needed that.
Thanks for telling...


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Sigh

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 13 December 2012 · 65 views

I'm not allowed to feel this way.
It wasn't that bad.
So stop feeling sorry for yourself.
I sit on this forum full of hurt people
And stare at my own hands in disgust.
I'm not ruined enough to fit in here.
I'm not broken enough.
In my own head I'm shattered.
But the comparisons don't add up.
Please,
Someone help me,
While I slowly...






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