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Right.

Posted by Simpletruth , 05 August 2013 · 35 views

Here they come,
Here they go.
Here lies everything I tried.
I'm too flawed,
I told you as much,
Now I just wish that I'd died.
You brand me as everyone else.
I accept you as you are,
And then you left,
Thanks for seeing nothing but scars.
Welcome to the last straw?
I don't even know anymore.


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Red Soldiers

Posted by Simpletruth , 05 August 2013 · 37 views

Last time I spoke,
But this time I'll let the red Soldiers carry my pain to the box.
Promise me you'll pretend that you can't see?
My red Soldiers never fail.
I'm dying.
I'm sorry.
But can't you see?
My red Soldiers are walking all over me.


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Sorry

Posted by Simpletruth , 04 August 2013 · 68 views

I'll just keep writing here.
Because my head's in too much turmoil,
I'm hoping that if I write long enough,
Clarity will make it's way to me.
But that's not the way this works,
Is it?
Sigh.


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Torn

Posted by Simpletruth , 04 August 2013 · 28 views

I'll just cry.
Because pain is such a familiar taste.
Gosh, joy, you lasted too long.
Timers.
Am I overreacting?
Sorry.
I'm sorry.
But you're dishonesty can't be accounted for.
I can't control what I don't know.
Lack of control equates fear.
Are you waiting for me?
Because I waited for you?
My walls are up,
Are yours?
I guess that...


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Losing myself...losing you...

Posted by Simpletruth , 04 August 2013 · 37 views

So here's to nothing.
Sigh.
You said : "whatever is necessary I would do it...I don't want to lose you because of my bad habits cause I really do love you."
I'm scared.
I'm tired.
Please don't do this.
Please.
Stop.


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Push.

Posted by Simpletruth , 30 July 2013 · 30 views

Fear grips me.
Okay maybe not fear.
But I'm anxious,
Hesitant.
I don't want to miss you.
I don't want to need you.
There are rules!
My brain is pissed.
No missing,
No needing,
No attachment,
No extra-thought.
And there has been a bit of all.
Today.
Today has been harder.
Because there is a truth that now exists.
Can we make that truth an i...


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Fading :

Posted by Simpletruth , 24 July 2013 · 32 views

I'm fading into the darkness.
It's so hard to fight it.
I want to succumb to the pain,
I don't want to feel anything,
I hate being numb,
Please just clock me out,
Hang me high and dry,
Drive me to the edge,
Push me through those doors.
Cliff.
And I'm falling,
Fading,
Faster into the abyss.
Frightened.
Terrified.
Maybe I can't avoid the...


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Aaron's Contract

Posted by Simpletruth , 19 July 2013 · 31 views

I, Aaron Acosta, hereby solemnly swear on this day Friday 19th July, 2013 that I shall no longer participate in the recreational use of marijuana, also known as weed, kush and by all it's other names, in any form or fashion including food, smoking and any other forms of consumption. I make this promise before God and my friend Sadie Isidore, to whom I...


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Overreacting

Posted by Simpletruth , 11 July 2013 · 31 views

I'm probably over thinking,
Over reacting,
Hated and hurting.
And I know that I can't call,
And I shouldn't entertain.
But please God make it stop.
My heart hurts.
Hard.
Please.
Please.
Please.
Please.


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An ode to confusion (3):

Posted by Simpletruth , 09 July 2013 · 29 views

Twas a choice,
But was it really?
Or had the decision been this way from the very beginning?
If this was usage,
My heart sends out the never ending adage,
"I'm sorry"
And we were content to use,
Two hearts deep in the pain of abandonment and hurt,
And we were content to kiss,
To pretend that tomorrow didn't exist,
And tiptoe around the pa...






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